Do not listen to your playlist of sad songs for an hour and half in the car after staying with some of your closest friends at their university (which you will not be attending) and having to say goodbye to them. Ever.
My theory was that listening to sad songs would make me feel better because then I'd know that other people were more depressed that I was. Wrong. It made it worse. But just like you can't help but look at the car wreck on the side of the road, I couldn't turn it off. So I listened to song after song that reminded me of all the people I'm going to leave behind. It was pretty close to one of those montage scenes in movies that flashback to every good, bad, and in-between memory you have with the people close to you. It wasn't nearly as dramatic, but memories came flooding back in a bittersweet kind of way. Bitter because I'm going to be separated from these friends for a long time, but sweet because I know they're only a phone call away and because these memories will keep me going when I feel lonely and afraid.
On a positive note, visiting the University of Louisville and seeing all my friends get settled into campus life made me really excited to go get settled in at BYU. So, as odd as it sounds, I am currently more excited to go and more upset to leave all at the same time!
Here's to old times and to the times that are yet to come!
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